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Uncategorized Tale PART 3 : The Ending

noreply@blogger.com (Precious F.D.) — Sun, 25 Feb 2007 16:25:00 +0000

UNCATEGORIZED TALE: The Ending

Chapter 5

After having dinner.

“Would you like to go to the bar to have some drink Aen, coffee, or something?” Tom asks

“No, I’m pretty full. The food is great. I hope you don’t mind I really would like to have some rest...”

“Is something wrong? You don’t seem to be enjoying yourself with the place.”

“No, I’m fine. It’s just that… I just need to lie down that’s all”

“Oh... Ok... You tell me if there’s anything you need, k?”

“Thanks…”

Tom and Aeneah took the elevator upstairs to their room, as Khali was just about to take the same elevator as theirs when the elevator door closed before he could even enter. He pushed the up button and took the next elevator. As if fate was unfolding its own game, Aeneah and Khali both had their rooms at the same floor. When Tom and Aeneah entered their room, a second later Khali went out from the elevator and went inside his own room.

Aeneah took a warm bath, she heard Tom say that he would be at the bar if she needs anything.

She was about to sleep when she remembered the bottle she had found. She opened the bottle and slips the paper out; she carefully unrolled the paper and was startled to see her name on it. As she read the letter, her heart pumped profusely with its every word. “Of all places.. Why do I have to find the one thing I’m trying to escape from? Why now and why here? Why do you memories of you continue to haunt me Khali?” confused of what the letter was all about, she rolled it and placed it inside the bottle, she went outside their room and went to the shore to breathe some fresh air.

She was standing at the shore, staring at the endless horizon, the bottle in her hand. As the evening breeze brushed her soft face, a man was slowly approaching to where she was standing

“Aeneah?”

Aeneah did not turn her gaze to the voice of the one calling her name.

Not far from where she was standing, Khali was dazed at the very sight of her. It was an unanticipated incident that they would be crossing paths again, here at the same resort they spent their first night out together a long time ago. He saw that she was holding something, a bottle that contained something, “is that what I think it is?” he thought. He took a few steps towards her, now they were only a few feet apart.

“Where did you get that?” Khali asks

“I found it.. Here.. in the shore..” this time she turned her gaze to him

“Aeneah… I… Why… I mean… Are you here alone?” he stutters

“I’m with someone… I just read you letter..” she saw the stunned look in his face

“Oh.. I.. Aeneah.. You know.. I mean I know..” he hesitated; words and thoughts flooded his mind

“Do you want to talk?” she asks

“Yes…” more than you know Aen..

The two of them sat down by the shore and talked; she answered every question he was yearning to hear, and he said the words he had long kept inside. Aeaneah told him how she and Tom met and Khali told her how he ended up marrying Tish. After a long conversation, there was silence, both of them facing the endless horizon of the sea. Khali spoke first

“What do you think went wrong Aen?”

“I don’t know, I guess some things are just not meant to be. I suppose we’re one of those people who were just made to cross paths. I had my mistakes, and you had yours. We both had regrets to some of the things that we did and did not do, to the choices we have made that brought us to where we are right now. ”, as she spoke these words, her eyes were fixed upon the sea’s unending drift.

“If time took a glimpse of the past, If I could have said and done the things that I failed to do before…would you… have chosen me instead of him?” he painfully asks her

She turned to him, looked him in the eye, and said “No…” he was stunned hearing her answer. But before he could utter another word, Aeneah said

“I did not chose you Khali, my heart did. For the first time, it learned how to work on its own, decide on its own, beat on its own freedom and chose to fall for you. Though I never understood the reason why it did, it just happened.”

Khali carefully grasps her hand; the gaps between their fingers interlocking with one another in a perfect fit.

“If I ask you to be with me Aen, will you?”

“You know it will just make things more complicated. We both have someone in our lives now, the ones whom we have responsibilities to. I don’t want to hurt Tom… He has given me so much; he helped me amend my life again. He was there for me when the world turned its back on me, when… I was too late to find you.”

“I understand...” Khali accepted the bitter truth of Aeneah’s words

“Khali… Could you do me a favor? Just one last favor…”

“Yes?” he looked at her

She saw the sea’s tranquil drift to the shore as she spoke these words

“My hand… Never let it go… just for now…”

Khali softly made his grip tighter and moved a little closer to her. Aeneah laid her head gently on Khali’s shoulders.

“I was never a believer of serendipity, but now that you’re here it just proves to me that we do not have control over fate’s existence. No matter how hard I try to run away from you, fate still finds a way to make our paths cross. If forever ends now, ends here… I would still gladly take it… with you Khali.” Aeneah said in her thoughts as she closed her eyes; the wind subtly brushed through her soft skin; with Khali’s gentle grip on her hand, she wished that letting him go would not hurt this much.

As both of them lay sitting upon the shore, Khali pictured the beautiful sunset he witnessed a couple of hours ago when he arrived here.

“You were my Princess, Aeneah and you will remain to be. I never believed that fairytales exists, but your coming into my life is proof enough that anyone can have his own fairytale. I guess this is where my fairytale ends. I suppose this is how Love works, even the most Beautiful Days… eventually have their Sunsets.” As Khali’s thoughts drifted into the evening air, a falling star shot from the sky. As he caught sight of it, he felt a pang in his heart; his star has finally fallen, he finally had his wish.

Who said forever means a lifetime? Most of the time it is that special moment in our lives, that moment when we wish that we could have the ability to take hold of the hands of time, to savor that one special moment – a moment we call forever.

One decision, one mistake, one choice - that made all the difference.

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Uncategorized Tale PART 2: The Other Side

noreply@blogger.com (Precious F.D.) — Mon, 29 Jan 2007 13:55:00 +0000

UNCATEGORIZED TALE: The Other Side of the Story

Was it really just a dream? Was Princess Aeneah’s Prince part of her eerie imagination? Was Khali’s love a dream or a reality in existence? Did the Venetian Princess really had that journey of finding what pain means and the complicated Nature of Love?

For Princess Aeneah it was a dream that changed her life, for Aeneah it was a reality that transformed her existence.

Yes, the Princess did embark on that journey on Earth and everything that happened was part of the undisclosed Law of Nature. It is a rare occurrence that a goddess and a human being are born under a dual zodiacal constellation. When Princess Aeneah and Aeneah were born, the ruling planet in the galaxy was Mercury. It was a time when Astraes, the daughter of Jupiter and Themses, was among the greatest ruling gods in the galaxy. In this golden era, justice and equality between the gods and goddesses reigned. It was also a time when the positions of the star Spica and Aquila were under the constellation of Khosha and Cassiopeia. When the Princess was born at the same time as Aeneah was, the spiral Sombrero Galaxy was seen in effect to the sequencing of both constellations; its Mexican hat shape, as seen from the edge of the Earth, was clearly visible to astronomers, which marked an historical epoch in human astrology. The astronomical mystery of the sequencing of both stars and constellations at the same time was undeniably a special event for both (humans & gods).

For some unknown reason these two exceptional beings share a unique connection with one another. In astrology, it is believed that the positions and movements of astronomical bodies, particularly the Sun, Moon, planets, and stars represent events on Earth. The position of astronomical bodies at the exact moment of a person’s birth and the subsequent movements of the bodies reflect that person’s character and, therefore, destiny.

In the previous chapters, Princess Aeneah experienced everything through Aeneah, her human zodiacal “twin”. This was made possible with the help of the cosmic powers of the sky, another astronomical mystery. As the Princess woke up from her dream, life continues to turn on earth for Aeneah.

The Princess’s tale had its entrancing end; will Aeneah’s Fairytale be any different to her? Will she and Khali still have their happily ever after?

Chapter 4

Khali could still not believe that he saw Aeneah again today, after 9 months of not seeing and talking to her, the thought of seeing her again still bothered him. He regretted to have not said anything to her, he could have asked her to talk or something, but everything happened so fast he overlooked on his past hesitations; that particular moment they just had in the park was unexplainable.

It was night outside, and his wife was already asleep when he got out of bed and went outside their house. He took his robe and went to their garden, he sat on the bench, and gazed at the evening sky, the iridescent beam of light reflected by the moon was striking. He likes staring at the moon; he appreciates the calmness and beauty it bequeaths to the evening sky. As he was gazing up at the moon, he remembered the first night he and Aeneah spent at the beach. The evening was so perfect, even the sky, the stars, and the moon were in the right places at that moment, – it was like a scenario in a dream. Even the flow of the sea was unspoiled; it was serene, calm with its every touch to the shore. The night was young, the place was unflawed, and he is with the perfect woman to spend it with. He thought that if forever was real, it would be here, in this scenic abode; he wished that like the sky’s horizon this moment would last in perpetuity… He broke off his thoughts; it was a pleasant experience, though it is just a painful memory now. When his eyes explored the vastness of the sky, he saw a few visible stars shining brightly, but there was one star that shined brightly amongst the rest. He remembered his astronomy teacher saying that the star Venus is the brightest object in our sky after the sun and the moon. Because of the distances of the orbits of Venus and the Earth from the Sun, Venus is never visible more than three hours before sunrise or three hours after sunset. It was almost three in the morning then, three hours before sunrise when the morning star Venus would fade away in view. This was the first time he ever saw it glimmer radiantly. “Venus, in roman mythology, the goddess of love and beauty. The mother of Aeneas and Cupid. Aeneah once told me that her name was rooted in ancient mythology; her mother was fond of Roman gods and goddesses and the beautiful history of mythology, that was why she got her name, Aeneah, from the Trojan prince, Aeneas – the son of Anchises and Venus. No wonder she grew up to much like a princess.” Khali thought; even the heavenly bodies still reminds him of Aeneah. He saw Venus flicker its light again,

“I guess your one of those stars which righteously belong to the sky, one that is made only to be gazed up upon, never to fall down to Earth to grant anyone’s wish. If only I could reach up to you and make my wish... If only I could reach up to you Aeneah...”

When he went back to their room, he got a pen and paper and wrote a letter for Aeneah. Although he had no idea where to send his letter or of why the sudden need to write to her after all this months, the thought compelled him to do so.

In his study room, he scribbled the words that he had long kept inside, words left unsaid and words he was yearning to say to her in the months passed.

Aeneah,

It took me this long to say all of this to you. I was not much of a brave man in the past that was why I never took the courage to tell you how I really feel. For the first time in my life, I was afraid. I was apprehensive to the thought of revealing my true feelings; you were not like any woman I have met before. I do not know what it is about you that make me all frail inside out; when it comes to you, I seem to have no control over my own strength; you are undeniably my heart’s strongest weakness.

I fell deeply in love with you, Aen. I don’t know why I’m saying all of this now, I know you already have someone special in your life right now, but I guess I still could not thoroughly move on with my life if I still have unanswered questions in my mind, questions that kept me holding on to you this long, answers that I need to hear, for me to stop hoping for a love trapped in the past. For the past months, I never stopped thinking of you, never stopped loving you, hoping that one day we could talk things out. Why did you suddenly left Aen? Was it something I did? Why haven’t you answered any of my calls in the past? Or return any of my messages? Did you find another guy? Was that the one you were with in the park? How long have you been together Aen?

I’m sorry if I wasn’t enough for you, I’m sorry if I could not stand up to your standard of being the Right Guy.

That time at the Park when we saw each other, why didn’t we talk? Like the way we did before? Why the sudden change Aen? You acted as if we barely knew each other. I know you felt it too, whatever that was in the park, I know you felt the connection we had at that moment. I was dying to talk to you at that time, but you seem to be avoiding me. Why?

I just want to know why Aen.

Khali

He rolled the paper and tied a ribbon around it, he got one of the fabricated bottles in his desk; crystal in appearance and jade green in color – Aeneah’s favorite color. He slipped the rolled paper into the bottle and set it back inside his desk.

The next day, Tish saw the bottle of letter when she was looking up for some of her reports in their study room. Curious, she opened the bottle and slips the paper out. When she finished reading the letter, tears streamed down her eyes, just as she was about to tear the letter apart, Khali entered the room.

“What’s wrong?” he asks Tish, that was when he saw her holding a piece of paper, his letter.

“Are you having an affair?” Tish asked in between sobs

“No, of course not!”

“Then how do you explain this?!” she angrily asks while holding out the letter

“Where did you get that?” he got the letter out of her hands before she could even tear it into pieces

“How could you do this Khali? We just got married! How could you cheat on me?!”

“Don’t you dare accuse me of cheating Tish! You don’t know anything!” he got the bottle and stormed out of the room leaving Tish crying in tears.

Khali got into his car and drove as far as he could. He was angry at himself, for having married Tish for all the wrong reasons, for lying endlessly to her about what he truly feels, for trying to build a life with someone he doesn’t truly love. He loves Tish but it was not as fervent as the love he has for Aeneah. As he was driving, he gazed upon the letter in the bottle, “I have to talk to her, to put an end to all of this.. But how? Where? I don’t even know where she is...” He drove off to the beach where he and Aeneah first spent a night out together; it was almost sunset when he arrived at the beach. He sat down near the shore and watched as the atmospheric glow of the sun shines, as the sun begins to set in the western horizon.

Holding the bottle in his hand, “If only I could find a way to give this to you, if only you could find a way to read this, to release the spirits of my emotions bottled up inside…” he threw the bottle into the sea as if it would solely find its way to Aeneah. He wanted to scream his heart out, to let the sea bear his despair. Only the sea now carries the burden of Khali’s lamented troubles. He went to the resort’s reception area to get a room.

Later that night, in the beach area, Aeneah was still uneasy about the thought of spending a night here at the same resort Khali and her spent their first night out together. She was startled when Tom said that they would be spending their 3^rd month anniversary at Aloha Beach Resort. She could not find the means to refuse him after all the preparations he’s been through for this special celebration.

Being here again, brings many memories of her past with Khali. She was still walking at the shore when the cold evening breeze brushed her hair, the pale cool light that shines from the Moon made the night more romantic. She went nearer to the water to wet her feet when something glowing caught her eye. When she went to pick it up it was a fabricated crystal bottle, and it contained a rolled paper inside of it. She was about to open the bottle when she heard Tom call her name.

“I was looking all over for you, what are you doing here?” Tom asks

“I was just… admiring the place; it’s beautiful in here…”

“Yeah, I thought you might like it too, a friend told me this would be the perfect place for an unforgettable escape. “

“I know what you mean…”, she said as she remembered Khali

“What’s that?” Tom asks gesturing at the bottle Aeneah was holding

“I... Don’t Know... I found it floating in the sea; someone must’ve thrown it or something.”

“Ah ok... Why don’t we go inside and have dinner, I’m getting kinda hungry. I heard they serve exquisite sea foods here.”

While Aeneah and Tom was having dinner at the Resort’s Restaurant, Khali was at the other room at the bar having a drink by himself.

Will these two cross paths again? Will Khali finally have the answers to all his past hesitations? Will Aeneah be willing to riposte Khali’s uncertainties? Is this serendipity? Or is this just a part of destiny’s cunning recreation?

Send me your replies and keep posted for further updates. =)

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Monday, January 08, 2007, 2:45:32 PM
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When does it begin, and how does it end?

noreply@blogger.com (Precious F.D.) — Sun, 28 Jan 2007 11:01:00 +0000

There was a time when I use to dream of this blurry picture, a couple of times actually and every time I wake up there was always this same question that I keep on asking myself: “Who is he?” really, I mean is it possible that you keep on dreaming of someone you haven’t met or seen your entire life? This question was answered not so long ago when I stopped dreaming and started believing that that certain someone exist - my someone. The one person that we keep on dreaming about is the one person we want to be with, the one we have longed for our entire life, the missing piece in our puzzle - the one thing that could make us complete - the other half of our souls that they have been searching for their entire existence, whatever you call it, it all boils down to being “the one”. Yes, he does exist for one thing, and I can attest to that - but apart from that, finding your “the one” isn’t enough to make him your happy ending. Believe me magic takes no part in making it happen. So how do you make it a happy ending then? That’s a tricky question because you can only do two things, you can either take risks and find out if he’s really the one meant for you or you can wait in vain and let fate & destiny handle all the work - whichever you choose, choose wisely and prepare yourself for whatever pain it may cause you because it will instigate pain one way or the other - that’s the desolate reality of loving someone. How do you choose? Do you use your mind over heart or heart over mind? You use both. In making decisions, it is not wise to use neither your mind only nor your heart alone, you use both. Why? Because the mind recognizes what the heart tries to deny, and the heart gives off every emotions the mind is trying to speak. They work hand in hand together. However, sometimes it is so hard for us to use both, one way or another one would still prevail. In most cases, the mind is used in prominence over the heart because God created us as intellectual beings. Some of you may disagree to what I’ve just said, so here’s one question I dare you to answer: why do you think the mind is created directly above the heart?

Now you’re starting to think. =)

When you say, “I can’t find any reason why I love him” that alone is a part of the mind’s reasoning. However, oftentimes people deny the reasons the mind is speaking, this complicates everything that is why so many of us make the same mistake over and over again. Many of us fall and cry for all the same reason as before - a sad reality we could never escape from. As we all know, we can never escape reality that is why as individuals we learn to cope up with it. Then how do you cope up from all the falling and crying? How do you get up after that enormous fall you had? One thing we humans normally do, after a painful experience is that we cry. Crying is a good thing actually apart from all of you who haven’t tried it yet. It is the best exercise one can have after having that heartbreak. Do whatever it pleases you to bring out your emotions - drink if you must, slap someone if it makes you feel better, scream for all you care; just let it all out, let the wind take all the sorrows of your broken heart, be somewhere far if you feel the need to. After all of this believe me, crying would no longer be such a big issue - people do get tired from all that crap after all. If you must know, our heart is only the only broken thing that still works. That is why people always move on after a heartbreak, ready to love and be hurt all over again.

So am I saying that your so called ‘the one’ can do all of this to you? Can he make you and break you all at the same time? Yes, he can. He would be the only one that can cause enormous changes and immeasurable pain in your life. As what I have heard, learned and experienced, love can mend your broken pieces and can shatter them all at once. It is like an instinctive craving that we humans have, a need that we must satiate ourselves and if we do not find this, we seek out like hunters desperate to have a taste of their own prey.

Insensitivity is not an innate attribute of human beings; it is learned and acquired through experience. We learn to be hard not because we want to but because we choose to. We feel the need to protect ourselves from whatever it is out there that threatens to break us into pieces. We learn to build walls just to protect us and keep that certain boundary against other people. Often you get wrong impressions, people think and say many things about you - most of which are the negative ones. However, I learned that it is still a good thing because you can easily distinguish those who are willing to climb your wall just to be with you and those who are trying to break you. On the other hand, what if someone broke your wall without you noticing it? Who and why? Only one person can do such a tremendous thing - the one person you least expected to, the one you thought was your happily ever after. He would be the only person who got to you that close and gracefully breaks your wall without you perceiving it. And why you ask? Because he can and he will if he chose to. That is why after all the loving ends; it always leaves you empty, bleeding, and unshielded from everything you’ve feared from in the first place. Your wall was the only thing that protected you from everything, and now that it’s broken, you feel the sense of vulnerability of being unprotected. You thought that he would be the one who would protect you from all of this, thought that he’d be the one to fight for you – so you thought as any woman did.

In the end, others can’t blame you if you are insensitive at times, why you are so hard to understand, why you did the things you did. Why you chose to live the life you’re living now, why you chose to love the people you’ve loved, why you let certain things happen, and why you let go of some things and some people in your life - all because you chose to. Failing, falling, being hurt and wounded is not an easy thing to go through. We have to do things and make certain choices in our lives to move on. Some of us may be bitter, harsh, and cynical after all the pain we’ve been through, it is a choice that we’ve made on our own, and people can’t do anything about it. When people say that you’ve changed it is just because you’ve stop living your life their way. Whether we like it or not it is all about making certain choices, either right or wrong we make our own choices.

Many of them may have their own point of view of who you are, what they see is only half of who you truly are. You are the only one who genuinely know who you are inside out; people only see what you want them to see. That is why there are certain parts in our lives that we keep to ourselves, we do not have the responsibility to impart every aspect of our individuality to other people, we do not always give them reasons to every decision we make, we are autonomous individuals, we have the choice not to.

Life is like a wild chase - some may have sustained the chase of finding who you truly are (those are your true friends and family). As expected they will continue to embark on your chase of life and only the genuine ones survive.

If you are willing to take that step towards the chase of finding someone be prepared to indulge yourself and endure the longest hunt in your life - coz that’s the beauty of truly knowing someone, like the art of hunting – it maybe long but in the end you’ll surely catch your prey. Never give up the chase if you know that you already found your prey, never let others dictate you how to hunt – you’re the only one who knows your prey, the only one who knows how it moves and how to seize it at the right moment.

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Wednesday, December 13, 2006, 6:10:18 PM

Uncategorized Tale PART 1

noreply@blogger.com (Precious F.D.) — Sun, 28 Jan 2007 10:27:00 +0000

UNCATEGORIZED TALE

Why is it so hard to relinquish the past? Why do some get stuck from what was, instead of just living life in the present? Why is goodbye such a difficult word to say to someone who once had been a substantial part of our lives? Why is letting go such a complicated thing to do? These are just some of the questions we keep asking ourselves over and over again; yet fear the answers to it. It is indeed true that the truth does really hurt once it gets you. That is why most of the time we deny it, even if it keeps banging on our doors and in our faces. This pains most of us – denying the truth and living a life in our own web of deception, we pretend to be happy just to mask the pain we feel inside. Often denial is our way of protecting ourselves – to deny and censor the truth is better than insulting our human ego through acceptance. Nevertheless, can we really deny the truth? Can we keep on hiding ourselves from the veracity of the circumstances? You can, but you can never run from it – like a dreadful dream it will haunt you for the rest of your life until you learn to accept it. No matter how hard we try to deny the truth, we can never change it; it will remain as it is. However, acceptance is such a heavy and profound word for most us, and it is often a difficult act to do especially at times when we are deeply hurt by someone we treasure or of by something, we do not have control of. I always had a difficult time accepting certain truths in my life and often like most people do I deny and try to hide from it, cover up the pain through pretensions – but like all they say the truth is the one thing you can never escape from no matter how hard you try. Let me tell you a familiar story, which most of us can associate certain events in our lives that has something to do with Truth in the Eyes of Deception.

No specific details are mentioned in the story; the readers are free to envision their own perception of where each scene takes place.

*Princess Aeneah/Aeneah: read as Ynah

*Earthly nickname Aen: read as Ayn

Epilogue

Seen from the Earth as a bright morning and evening star, Venus existed. Apart from the knowledge of humankind, planet Venus is more than just the brightest object in the sky, in this second smallest planet from the sun, there existed a race apart from our own. Life begun here when the Trojan Princess Venice met and fell in love with the god of love, Cyd. The two chose this second planet from the sun and built their own kingdom here, they decided to give the name Venus to their new home, which meant the home of love and beauty. Crafted in his own powers, Cyd transformed planet Venus into a picturesque and lovely abode, magically protecting it from the Sun’s fiery rays. The Venetians, the people living in Venus, lived here in harmony and peace with one another, they could not ask for anything else, for a paradise like this was incomparable to anything they could imagine.

Though Queen Venice was pleased to have such a beautiful kingdom, she could not feel a total sense of contentment within her. Not until the day she conceived their first daughter, Princess Aeneah. The birth of their little princess brought unexplainable bliss to both the King and Queen, and the people of Venus rejoiced the birth of their future ruler.

As Princess Aeneah was growing up, she turned out to be as stunning and charming as her mother, Queen Venice and as strong willed as her father, King Cyd. Years passed and it was time for the Princess to choose her prince, the news spread through the different kingdoms and as anticipated princes from different lands came to the palace. As each prince offered their royal gifts to her, the Princess seem to have lost interest to any of them, to any prince for that matter. The King was concerned of his daughter’s disinterest in choosing a prince.

“Princess, didn’t any of the princes catch your attention? They are all fine young men, and they have traveled far just to see you my dear.”

“They all say the same thing father, one and the same. It is like they all think alike. I want my prince to be different; I want him to be unique. I cannot feel anything special to all the princes that I have met; I would know if I have met my Prince, I would feel that he would be the one for me. I would know it. You always said that when you met mother.” She flashed her father a sweet smile

She just knew that somewhere out there, her prince existed, the right one where she righteously belongs.

As the Princess was growing up, she grew tired of all the special attention she was getting. Tired of being all caged up in the palace, bored of the usual things all of the men say to her, the gifts she receives, just everything. Whenever she feels jaded, she would stare up to the sky every night and wished that life would take a different turn for her. And every time she makes that wish, there was always this star that shines the brightest among the others. Whenever she gazed upon it, she felt as if it was speaking to her in some way.

The next night she asks her father about that certain star.

At her veranda...

“Oh that my dear, is the star we call Earth, not a very pleasant place to live though. I’ve seen how my power got messy in that place, people end up being hurt instead, I often wonder why though, that is not what Love intends to do.”

“What do you mean hurt father?”

“Hurt my dear is when you feel pain, but don’t worry you won’t be experiencing any of that here, Love is what makes Venus a paradise, that is why people here live in peace and harmony.”

“What does pain mean father? Doesn’t Love exist on Earth?”

“Now, now.. Enough of all the questions. Why don’t you accompany your mother to the dining table and let’s all have dinner.”

Her father always has that habit of leaving her hanging with questions, especially when it comes to the outside world. She gazed up again in the sky, looked at the same star and said, “I wonder why father said those things about you. And what is pain anyway? Someday I want to know what pain is, I know you hold the answers to all my questions. Someday I would go to earth and find out myself. Wish I could just find someway how to.”

That night when she was sleeping, a bright light suddenly surrounded her. One thing she did not know is that when your father is a god, anything can happen. When she wished upon that star, the cosmic power of the sky heard her and is now making her wish happen. Unconsciously wrapped up in her sleep, the princess had no idea of what was now happening around her, for in a split second she will be brought to a place where she would be starting to experience everything she wished for, life indeed is now taking a different turn for her.

Chapter 1

When Princess Aeneah woke up, she felt a little different from usual. She stared through her window, looked outside, and felt that something was different, that she was different somehow, but she could not quite put her finger into it.

When she landed on earth, the princess’ memories of Venus and everything about it has been replaced by Earthly knowledge, which was all part of the cosmic powers doing, on Earth Princess Aeneah was just Aeneah.

Though she was the daughter of the god of Love in Venus, Aeneah was no typical girl you’d ever meet on Earth. Though she still possessed her mother’s charm and good looks, she’s the reserved type of person; aloof towards people, this is the reason why most of the time she gets wrong impressions from other people. Some think that she’s snob, insensitive and bitter. Not the usual personality you would expect from someone who came from the planet of love and harmony, but I guess that is part of the cosmic powers doing to let her find what she truly seek for. Along with her coming to earth, she also possessed some of what every human being have, a family, a house, a job, friends, and a history (don’t ask, it’ll just make this much longer than it already is).

She was still staring at her window, when her alarm clock rang, she got up and opened her window, the morning breeze blew through her face, “such a sunny day.. for work.. ugh! I hate how hot the sun gets when I get to work.” Then she went to the bathroom, took a bath, and got dressed for work. In here, the princess lived as an artist; she got a good apartment, and had a good source of income - needless to say, living life was indeed not hard for her. Except for one thing, she was never into a stable relationship. Not that any of the men didn’t notice her or anything, but she was either too busy for work or is just avoiding to go into a serious relationship whenever she has the chance to. She just couldn’t find the right guy, every man she met all end alike. Routinely, they all bore her in the end; none of them seem to keep up her interest. None of them seem to know what she really wants.

Things got worse when both of her parents died in a car accident, 2 years ago. She buried herself to work, which made having a stable relationship harder for her to find, yet alone keep one.

Whenever she feels the emptiness of being alone, she would push herself to be somewhere else. Somewhere where she could pretend to be happy to conceal her fear of being alone, where the truth of the matter cease to exist. In her fabricated world of deception, pain was the one thing she never allowed herself to experience. Especially when her parents died, she made a promise to herself that she will not let anyone hurt her, or cause her any pain for that matter. Through her passion for art, she painted every thing that burdens her, every sorrow of emotion she forbids herself to feel; her works of art burdened every negative aspect of her life. That is why people often think that she is insensitive, strict at times; hard to reach and hard to understand. Still she continued to live her life this way, she did not mind what other people think of her, and it was a choice she made for herself. Until the day she unexpectedly met Khali, the one person that would soon turn her world upside down.

Khali was introduced to her through a common friend; he was what most people call the “dangerous” type of guy. She didn’t have any clue of what his past was like, or why he was known as the dangerous one either. She hated it when best friend, Lizy, starts to hook her up with some guy, she never seem to stop. Lizy had hooked her up with most of the guys she dated in the past, and most of them ended up the same – never passed through having that second date.

“This ones going to end up like the other ones you’ve hooked me up with in the past Lizy, and stop trying to find Mr. Right for me will you? ‘Coz he doesn’t exist.” she called up her friend Lizy when she left her a message about dating Khali.

“Ok, ok, but this one’s the last one Aen promise, just give it a try please? Besides he’s really nice and funny, I’m sure you’ll like him.”

“Weren’t you the one who told me that he doesn’t really have a good reputation when it comes to dating girls?”

“Yeah, I said that didn’t I.. But that was before I met him and got to know him in person, and you’d be as surprised as I am Aen, please just give it a try, one date?”

“If you like him that much why don’t you date him?”

“Hahaha! Very funny Aen, I would but Todd and I are dating again... And you need someone to lighten you up a bit, you’ve been working so hard lately.”

“Oh, so you’re back with him huh.. So what else is new.. Ok, Ok, I’ll go out with this Khali guy, one date and that’s it. And I’m not doing this coz I need some guy make my life happy, I am happy with my life, I’m doing this coz you ask me to.”

“Ok, whatever Aen. You’d thank me for this in the future. Heheheh.. Talk to you later k? Todd’s coming over.”

“Ok, bye.” She hanged up, She still couldn’t believe she let Lizy talked her into doing it, again. “One date and that’s it. What else could go wrong?” she told herself.

That night she met up with Khali in some Asian restaurant, she dressed up casually, good thing he did not chose some fancy restaurant, she hated dining in one of those. She spotted him sitting in a corner table; he clearly fits Lizy’s description; she approached him.

“Khali right?” she asks, he is charming & attractive as what Lizy said

“Aeneah? Wow your more beautiful than what Lizy describe” he stood up and held up his hand in a handshake.

She took it and shook his hand, “The “wow” compliment - this one’s going to really end up like the other ones beforreeeee...” She thought. She sat down and they had dinner, he’s really a talker she thought, but she enjoyed listening to him. Lizy was right he is funny, they had a couple of laughs while having dinner.

She watched him while he was talking, “He does have that dangerous look in him, kinda makes him ruggedly attractive though. But I still haven’t changed my mind, one date, and that’s it. Just do it like the ones before Aen, the others Lizy set you up with in the past, how hard could it get?” Their night ended and he walked her home.

“I really enjoyed having dinner with you” Khali said when they stopped by her apartment.

“Yeah, me too... Thank you for dinner.. I’d better get inside… It’s getting kinda late… and I’ve…. still got work tomorrow.”

“So I’ll call you tomorrow?” he asks

“uhmm.. sure” she hesitated at first but she still gave him her number, then she went inside her apartment, and the night ended. Their date was not as bad as she expected it to be, she found it rather fun actually. Something about him made her curious, he wasn’t that bad of a date either, and she enjoyed talking with him, maybe that was the good part, she just enjoyed talking with him.

The next day Khali called her, she was hesitant at first, “what if he asks for another date? Ugh! I could not get through this again.” Her phone continues to ring, she pushed the receiver button.

“Hello?”

“Hey, Aeneah, it’s me Khali.”

“Oh, yeah. How you’ve been?”

They talked for about an hour before she finally she hanged up. She enjoyed the conversation she just had with him, funny to think though she never enjoyed talking this much to any of the men she dated before. It was either she was the only one talking, or she was bored of them talking. But with Khali, it was different. “You seem to know your track Khali, surprising for a guy such as yourself.” She still could not believe she just gave in to having that second date, the thought amused her, – and a smile formed on her face.

Months passed these two became good friends; he visited often, which became a pleasant thing for her, he is really unlike the other ones she had met before. One thing that puzzled her was that though they have been spending so much time with one another, Khali still hasn’t proposed to her (expressed his feelings). In spite of that, she still enjoyed the times she spent being with him, all she knows is that he says the right words at the right time, made her laugh and smile at the right moment, made each day brighter and lovely than before, made each sunrise and sunset more momentous than the usual. Made living much more meaningful than it already was. Their special relationship continued to grow as the months pass by and along with it a special feeling blossomed in her heart – a feeling she tried to suppress and deny but still enjoyed the sensation it brings. It was so good to be true that sometimes it scares her that he is becoming an innate part of her, consuming half of who she is. She tried to get rid of these thoughts, to the truth that maybe she is falling for him, and that she is falling harder than she could imagine. She have never felt this way with any other guy before, not like this, it was too intense for her to handle, and that was when she started to avoid him. She changed her number and transferred to another apartment, in case he goes up looking for her there. She warned Lizy not to tell him about this, and she did not explain why she was avoiding him, Lizy did what she was told. One thing she knew about Aeneah is that when she says, “don’t”, she really means it.

But, as days and months pass by thoughts of him continue to linger on her mind, and the more she conceals it, the more it pains her and no matter how hard she tries to cover up the pain by giving a million reasons why she should forget him, the one reason why she shouldn’t still weigh much heavier than the million ones. This was the one true thing that she started to accept, that she could no longer conceal her pretensions; that the more she does the bigger it gets. Even in her fabricated world, the place where she used to go to protect herself, she could no longer suppress the very fact that keeps on haunting her. Even through painting, she could not portray the adversity of her dilemma. She realized that he has indeed become an innate part of her, consuming half of her, and completing who she is at the same time, she started to believe that he might be the one meant for her, there were no other reason – she just knew, and she have never felt this way with anyone before. He made her happy in ways she could not put in plain words, she just felt one simple thing, - she has fallen madly in love with him.

She decided to look for him and tell him she was sorry for leaving just like that; she asked Lizy his number but she said she left it in her directory at home, and told her that she’ll give it to her the moment she gets home. She was glad Lizy didn’t ask her so many questions. She was excited at the thought of seeing him, talking to him again like the way they used to. Now, she doesn’t have to be afraid anymore, she knows Khali can protect her from everything that she’s afraid of. She was walking through Marylebone Avenue, when these thoughts danced through her mind, then a familiar voice spoke not far behind her. “That voice, I know that voice..” ..” as she turns around, anxious and eager to see the person who speaks the voice of melody in her heart, that was when she saw him, Khali, standing sideways in front of a store just a few feet ahead of her, he was talking to someone on the phone. Her heart leapt in delight with the very sight of him, then everything around them started to fade; he was the only one she could see now. She took a few steps towards him, her heart started to beat faster and she could feel the rush of blood run through her veins with her every step. When she took a second step, that was when the most surprising thing happened, a woman came out of the store, grasped Khali’s hand and kissed him. As she takes footing towards them, puzzled at what she is seeing, the two of them started to walk away, the woman’s hand grasping his. “Is he with her?” She could not find the words to explain this; the heartbreaking truth confronted her, He has someone else – He belongs to somebody now. “No, this is just a bad dream.” She keeps on telling herself, but as seconds pass, the more it became real to her. The woman holding the hand of the man he loves, the two of them walking away leaving her behind. She could not move an inch, standstill, her eyes still on him, she watched the scene unfolding in front of her as everything around started to became hazy and in a snap the people who faded out a couple of moments ago, became real again.

This grief-stricken moment shattered everything she had, everything she ever believed in, every inch of who she was. It left her broken and wounded, she have never felt so alone and dispirited her entire life, she wanted to run, as far as she could but she could not bring herself to – suddenly a feeling of emptiness enveloped her. In that moment tears started to fall from her eyes, as the painful truth intensifies the more it brought her tears. She did not know how long she was standing there in tears, it felt like forever. To where she was, the glow of the setting sun caught her eye, she could no longer take the increasing weakness of her mind and heart yet along her body, she fell on her knees and fainted, along with the dimness of the place her eyes started to rest. Before her body fell into the ground, something or rather someone caught her but she already passed out to even notice.

Chapter 2

The glow of dusk caught his eye, he hated how he always has to be in stores he doesn’t like to be in, that was why he prefers to stay out while his girlfriend do all the shopping and he was glad that she finally finished this one out. While they were walking, something else caught his eye aside from the glow of the setting sun, something, or someone? As he turned his gaze he saw a man catch a woman fainting, when he had a clearer look of the woman’s face, from where he was standing, blood started to rush to his face, he was stunned at the very sight of her face. “Aeneah?”, “Is that really her?”, he wanted to run to her that instant. But his girlfriend gestured him to hurry along they still have appointments to attend to, when he took a second look towards where she saw her, he could only see people coming and going, not a sight of her.

“Are you coming or not? What’s gotten into you?” his girlfriend asks.

“Nothing, I thought I saw someone I knew”.

When he got home, thoughts of seeing her again still flooded his mind. “Was that really her? And who was that guy that held her?”, “Was that why she never answered any of my calls? The reason why she suddenly disappeared is because she’s with another guy?”. The questions just keep on coming; he wanted to scream his heart out. “Why do I have to see her now? Why now!”. Plainly, he was angry that he saw her again after she bafflingly disappeared and stopped answering his calls and messages without any reason. Until now it still puzzles him why they just stopped talking, stopped seeing each other. He tried everything to reach her, when he found out she moved out of her apartment he asked Lizy about it but she didn’t tell him anything either.

He pondered on the experiences of his past with her..

It was still fresh on his mind, the memories of the past he had with her, how could he forget – she was the one thing he ever wanted all his life. That was why when she unknowingly disappeared, it left him dumbfounded of the reason why she left. Everything they had in the past was all to perfect to fit a fairytale story, but like an unexpected ending, his fairytale ended when his maiden left him before he could say his happily ever after.

The special relationship he had with her was incomparable; the unexplainable feeling of bliss he feels when he was with her was hard to forget. He was undoubtedly falling for her. He had thoughts about pursuing her, but the fear of rejection terrified him. She was like no other girl he ever met, she was different. He often asks Lizy why she hadn’t had any lasting relationships in the past and why she dumps a guy even before having a second date. Lizy always says the same answer, “Aeneah doesn’t believe Mr. Right exists.” This thought frightened him even more, that was why he never got courage to tell her how he truly feels. “I could never be the right one for her, she’s just too good for me. There were a bunch of good guys that tried to pursue her yet failed, what chance could a guy like me get?”

When she suddenly disappeared, thoughts of her finding someone kept on rattling his mind. He tried calling her, leaving like a million messages just to keep in touch, but there was still nothing. “Maybe she found someone else.” He tells himself, “I thought we had a connection, how could she just walk away from everything we had? Maybe this is all my fault; I should have told her how I truly feel when I had the chance to!” He tried everything to forget her, but his efforts failed. How could you forget someone you’ve already learned to love. He admits that he’s no prince charming for her, but he loved her truly like any prince would and he still loves her until now. Nevertheless, it is all too late now, he had his chance, and he never took it. He turned his dismays to vices, dating one girl to another just to fill the emptiness he felt, until he met, Tish, his current girlfriend. They started to go out, though he could not be with the one he truly loves much as he wants to, the new relationship he had with Tish filled in the longing he feels for Aeneah. The first month in a relationship eased away the pain he felt, another month went and they started to have petty arguments that turned to constant fights with one another that just keep on getting worse everyday. He wanted to end the relationship but he could not find the means as to how to, and every time she tries telling Tish about it, she’d begged him not to leave her and that she would end her life if he left. Until he decided to just smooth things and just be with her, “it’s better to have Tish, maybe we could still work things out. Leaving her would just make things worse than it already is.” However, he never stopped thinking about Aeneah with each passing day, he was still holding on to her somehow, though he did not know of the reason why.

He grew weary thinking about everything that happened in his past, until it finally put him to slumber.

That night, he dreamt that he was walking through a dim place where he finds her (Aeneah), slumped, in tears. He could only watch from a distance as her one true love swam in tears, alone in such a dark place like this. He wanted to run to her and hug her tight, take her hand and wipe those tears away – put all the hurt behind and bring out all the love he had kept for her for such a long time now. But he could not move himself towards her, something is stopping him from doing so. He called out to her, screamed her name, but she did not turn her gaze. “Why can’t she hear me? and why can’t I move towards her?”.

Then someone from behind her emerged, it was a man, he could not quite see his face, then the man started to move towards her and wiped away her tears, then they started to walk away. He tried calling out to her, but it was futile. He felt more empty and lost. “How could life take such an appalling turn”? How could he not do anything while the love of his life lies ahead of him in tears, and now a man is taking her away from him. He could only watch as they walked away, as the shadows of darkness surfaced he finally lost sight of them completely. “Why was she crying?” he asks himself. Then everything was a blur. His dream ended in a blur.

He awoke, bewildered by the dream he just had. Even in his unconscious thoughts, he could not deny the truth that he still loves her. “But why was she crying?”, this left him mystified. Today was the first time he has ever seen her again – the face that captured and enchanted him not so along ago, the face of the woman he had longed for.

“How could someone be just a few step closer yet so hard so reach?” he asks himself as he remembers the dream he had. Within a voice told him, “Sometimes the closest things we have are the harder to reach, because of their depth that we find ourselves going through an endless tunnel, a never-ending journey that compels each one of us to embark on. Though this journey holds so many uncertainties we still take it because we have the need to and we cannot resist the force that is pulling us towards it.”

With that thought, Khali said to himself, “Foolish was I to think that there would still be a you and me, now that everything is changing and you might have someone in your life, I could only hope now that I would be strong enough to take this all in. I could only utter these words that kept me going through when you left: You never lost me. Though I never understood why you really left, I gave myself to you the day I realized I’ve fallen in love with you - I was yours before, and I am still yours until now. I may not have told you how I truly feel, in my heart you would always be the girl who took my heart away.” “I guess I just have to accept the fact that you may have someone in your life now, and that you were never mine, and never will be.” And with those last words, a tear fell from his eyes, one that excruciatingly broke his heart.

Chapter 3

When she awoke, tears still burned her eyes. She carefully opened her eyes and saw that she was in a room, she stared in the window and saw that it was night outside, “So it was true then, I didn’t dream everything that had just happened…..Khali, how could you..” as she was contemplating on what had happened, and when tears were just about to fall again, a hand gestured a white handkerchief in front of her. When she raised her head up she saw a man standing in front of her, she could not quite see his face, she still felt a little dizzy. When she hobbled herself to stand, the man helped her and held her hand in place. That was then when she had a good picture of his face, he looked kinda familiar.

“Where am I? and who are you?” she asks

“I’m Tom, and you’re in my house.. Don’t worry nothing happened. You passed out a couple of hours ago, in Marylebone Avenue. I didn’t know what else to do so I brought you here, I hope you’re not angry.” His eyes were kind and gentle that in some way it gave her a sense of comfort for winding up here.

“No I’m not and thank you for what you did. My name is Aeneah by the way.” She got her coat and things and asks him if she could go home now.

“Oh sure, let me take you home if you don’t mind, it’s awfully late and I wouldn’t want anything to happen to you on your way home.”

“Uhhh.. Okay sure Tom, and thanks again.”

He brought her home safely and they both bid their goodbyes, she thanked him again for the last time.

In her apartment, she still could not stop thinking about what she just saw today. “Two months and he already found someone else; I thought you were different Khali. I never should have allowed myself to fall for you, I was wrong to believe that you could have been the one for me. I guess your past speaks of who you truly are, I should’ve have known better. I knew you were dangerous the very day I first saw you, I never should have led myself into your trap.” She called up Lizy to tell her about what had happened, but she was surprised that she said she already knew, that Khali already has a girlfriend.

“Why didn’t you tell me this before Lizy?” she asks angrily

“Because I thought it wouldn’t be much of an issue for you. After you decided not to return his calls, or answer his messages or even see him again, I thought you wanted everything done with the guy. I know Aen, I’ve hooked you up with a couple of guys in the past, but Khali was different Aen, he really likes you, I think he even loves you. I have never seen him so happy with anyone else before, not when he was with you. I was glad that you even gave him the chance to have that second date; I thought things were going terrific with you guys, but I was stunned when I heard that you weren’t answering his messages or returning his calls, you even transferred to another apartment just to avoid him. He was the only one, amongst the rest, that you ever gave part of your time with, I thought you liked the guy, Aen. What happened?”

“I just.. I don’t know.. At least now I know that he really isn’t worth it.” she sobbed

“Well whatever happened to you guys back there, I just want you to know that he really got messed up when you left him Aen, I’ve never seen him so depressed.”

“He doesn’t look so depressed when I saw him today.. I’ll call you back later.” She hanged up before Lizy could utter another word. She stared into nothingness, “How could he do this? If what Lizy said is true, why didn’t he tell me he loves me?” she could only listen to the resounding silence that surrounds her, she prayed that the night would not have its bitter end, so that she may not face tomorrow with the woeful truth that she had just lost her one true love.

The next day she went to the mausoleum to visit her parent’s tomb; this was the usual place she goes to whenever she wants contemplate on things. She feels that through here, her parents are guiding her to sort out her thoughts about things. She was surprised, when she got to her parents’ tomb, to find someone putting some flowers beside their tomb. When she got closer, she saw that it was the same guy that helped him the other day, Tom, the one who caught her when she lost consciousness.

“Tom? What are you doing here?” she puzzlingly asks

“Oh, Aeneah I was just visiting my godmother and godfather, I haven’t seen them since they passed away, my Dad use to bring me to their house whenever he plays a game of golf with my godfather here.”

“Tommy? Oh my god, is that you?!” she exclaims, she has never seen him since they were still six year olds. Whenever their dads play golf, Tommy would come over and she would play with him, but then they moved out when she turned twelve, she hasn’t seen him again after that.

“Nuttie? I mean Aeneah? Is that really you? No wonder your name sounded familiar when you told me that the other day.”

“Hahaha.. You haven’t forgotten the name you use to call me.. Now I know why you looked familiar when I first saw you. It’s so nice to see you again Tommy.. I mean Tom.” She smiled, and they started talking about their childhood memories as if it was just like yesterday.

Tom and her got close, and he was indeed pleased to see her child-hood “crush” grow up to be such a stunning and charming woman. Her beauty always caught his eyes as a child, but now it captivated him ever more. Months passed their friendship continued to grow, she started to smile and laugh again, – there were radiant glows in her eyes where tears had been, she was happy. Unknowingly Tom fell in love with her in each passing moment. She felt it and she was grateful for his love but she still has not forgotten the pain of her past, of the wasted love she had for Khali. Khali left so much space unfilled when she lost him; even with Tom’s love for her, she still felt that there were still some empty spaces.

She stills remembers the day Tom expressed his feelings for her. “I know we only had begun to know each other for a couple of months now, but I want you to know that ever since as a child I have always admired you with much innocence, and now that I got the chance to get to know you better, you never fail to captivate me with your beauty and uniqueness. My feelings just got deeper and deeper for you and I could not find any reason not to fall for you. When we were still young, I was always willing to fight and protect you from every bully kid that try to cross you on your way home or climb the highest tree just to get your favorite cat down, now I’m willing to give you not just my Love, Aeneah, but every part of who I am. I cannot promise to give you the world, but I’m willing to build my world with you, if you would give me the chance to. I know this all might be too soon for you, and I’m willing to wait. I want you to know that I’ll always be here for you.” In her room, while looking out on her window, thoughts flooded her mind. “Maybe Tom is right, I’ve taken enough risks in my journey of finding someone whom I thought would fulfill and satiate my very existence, someone worth giving my heart and love to, someone who deserves me, someone who I belong to, only to find out that that someone cease to exist anymore. I have dealt with too much pain, time has helped me ease the pain, and it was Tom that helped me find myself again. I could not have done it without him.” She was unsure of how she truly feels about the thought of loving again, the memories of her past still has some open wounds she needs to deal with. Even words are not enough to illustrate how she truly feels now. People often get tired of loosing, tired of feeling pain, tired of the shit that they go through, that is why most choose to move on, choose to forget and choose to give up the fight, choose to bid sad goodbyes, choose to live, choose to love – again. But can another man’s love fill in one’s lost love?

She made her choice, a choice that made her feel at peace within, a choice, which helped her accept the very fact she kept on questioning before. Of why she had let herself be hurt by someone, of why the one person she believed in almost tore her apart. She felt better now, a little cracked, but better, and he was thankful that Tom had found her the time when she felt lost, confused, and alone in this world, a world that never gave her the chance to be with the one she loves.

She accepted the many changes in her life, enjoyed every moment of freedom life brings. She faced every bit of reality’s existence, the truth it bequeaths, every pain it conveys, everything she was afraid to feel, recognize, and bear before - everything she ever denied to herself. Everything she wanted to conceal herself from whenever she was afraid, including the complexity of being in love, of loving and love itself.

She started to go out often now, experience the leisure of being and living in this world. She started to gain more friends, which made life a lot lighter to live. Lizy was happy seeing her go through all these positive changes in her life. She continued painting, expressing not only her pain and sorrows but also of life and of the freedom of having the privilege to live in it.

Tom and her started dating for three months now, seriously dating. He became a significant part of all of these immense changes in her life, which is why today would be an extra special day for him. She would delight him with a day full of surprises. She cooked breakfast, not really the usual thing she does, but she did it with much effort, which pleased him anyway. She then took him to the park and prepared a home cooked picnic meal, which some of her friends helped her to do.

Tom was pleased seeing her do all of this, he was happy seeing the glow in her eyes, Aeneah is like a blossoming bud ready to face the splendor of spring. Tom watched her unpack their picnic basket; he had always viewed her as a beautiful flower, so fragile and attractively adorned by its lovely petals, something you’d be afraid to pick from where it’s rooted because of the fear of damaging its delicacy, but brings contentment to your eyes and bliss to your soul. Like a bud that takes time to bloom and leaf out, he was amazed by the complexity of her being. He could never explain why he had never laid eyes on any other woman again the day she had fallen in his arms five of months ago, he was grateful that he was the one that caught her when she fainted. And he never did let go of her from that moment on, “I know she still thinks of Khali, I envy him because of her love for him but I pity him for not having the courage to fight for her, though I often wonder why he did not, she never tells me anything about her past, I guess talking about it doesn’t change the fact that her past hurt her deeply. But I’m glad that she’s still here.. with me and I hope she’s as grateful as I am of having her.” His thoughts were interrupted when a child’s ball hit their table; he gave the ball to the little boy and helped her unpack their basket.

“I’ll get us some drinks, I forgot to put these in the chiller, I’ll be right back” she said as she held some of their bottled drinks.

“Ok, I’ll be here, always have and always will be.” He smiled, she smiled back, and she started to walk to buy their drinks.

As she strolled towards the park...

“I’ve never seen the sun shine so brightly as today, not since the days when..” her thoughts were interrupted when someone bumped her and knocked her off her feet – and when she got hold of the guy’s hand and got up she was startled by what she saw, it was Khali, “days when I was with you.” Her thought finishes. They haven’t seen each other since that in the store, 9 months ago. Both were as surprised as the other, no words came out from their mouths, only their eyes speaks of what they truly want to say to one another.

“Aeneah? My god, she’s still as beautiful as I remember her to be” Khali thought

“Khali.. Of all places, of everything that has happened. Still the world turns and beckons us to cross paths.” Aeneah thought as she watched his eyes gaze upon hers.

As if the world is starting to fade away, that only both of them existed and nothing else mattered, that some unknown force conspires them to be in the same place at the same time. Time and space were of no importance at this very moment, as if each other’s soul has finally found what they were seeking for. Her heart started to beat faster like the way it did when she saw him in front of the store. As if the chase of finding someone has finally come to an end. His eyes spoke right through hers, and no words could portray the language it articulates. At that moment when their eyes met, they both felt the fulfillment they were both seeking for, questions that they both have for one another never to seem to matter anymore, at that moment they just both felt complete in each others presence, -one, - their broken pieces filled the other’s empty spaces.

She spoke first, “Hey… how you’ve been…? Haven’t… seen.. you.. for quite a long time now.” Why do you have to appear now? why now that I was starting to learn to live life.. without you….

“I’m… Good… you?” he stutters, trying to find the right words to say.

Say something damn it! say your sorry, or say that you still love her!

“I’m Fine,. so you here with someone?” ask him if he does love you! Tell him why you suddenly left!

“yeah.. uhh.. my wife… and you?” he guessed. Ask her why she never called you back! Why she suddenly left, ask her now or you’ll never get the chance to!

“oh…, yeah he’s over there waiting for our drinks..” Khali caught a glimpse of a man unpacking a picnic basket. ”Speaking of drinks, I’d better get going… It was.. uhm.. nice seeing you again..” He’s married?!

“oh, ah okay.. it was nice seeing you too.. take care..” How stupid! You shouldn’t have asked her, now you just knew she really is with someone. Don’t go yet, can we just talk? Tell her you want to talk…

She smiled, he smiled back and as they walk their separate ways, behind each other backs, their minds spoke what each heartbeat conveyed.

“you could have told me you already found some guy..”

“was I so wrong to believe in you?”

“I suffered a lot when you left”

“It almost tore me apart when I found you…..with her”

“Tish could never replace you”

“Tom helped me mend my broken pieces…”

“You should have told me the reason why you stopped answering my messages, the reason why you left. I wouldn’t have hold on to you this long. If only you could have just told me...”

“You could have asked me, when you had the chance.. I thought you were the one I was waiting for my whole life... Why didn’t you just tell me you love me then.. ”

“I guess you’re happy with him now...”

“I hope she can make you happy as much as I want you to be...”

The soft morning breeze blew in their direction, as if taking away the sorrows of their thwarted hearts, dispersing it into the wind.

She came back a couple of minutes later with some cold bottled drinks.

“Hey, that was kinda long to buy some drinks, got caught up in traffic?” he humors

“Sorry it took so long, i.. Uh.. just bumped into an old friend.. you thirsty?” she offers him a bottled drink

“Really? whO? Why didn’t you invite your friend to join us?” he takes the bottle and pops it open.

“Just an old friend, from someplace I met before.. He was with.. his family.. so I didn’t bother inviting him.. and besides this was suppose to be your Day, we’re suppose to spend it my way and I intend to just spend it only with you.” She flashes him a sweet gleeful smile.

“Thank you for doing all of this” he said to her

“This is one just my way of saying thank you for helping me.. From the day you caught me in your arms and for just being there for me, for never giving up on me.” She felt good saying all of this to him, and with that, she gave him a soft kiss on the lips.

But, in the back of her mind she still thinks of Khali, that moment they had a couple of minutes ago. “What was that?”, “I’ve never felt that kind of serenity since the days I was with him, and why did I suddenly felt it again when he looked right into my eyes.” “Are you really happy… with her Khali? Would Tom really make me happy?” She gazed at Tom.

Not far across from where they are, Khali was intently looking at them. He saw the kiss Aeneah gave this man, a kiss from the girl he loves, a kiss that could have been his, and the girl that could’ve been his; the girl that took his heart away only to leave him broken and bleeding. He could not fathom why he is hurting now, why he had not felt that way a couple of minutes ago when they bumped into each other, why he did not feel the pain he’s feeling right now seeing her kiss another guy, why he just felt a sense of serenity and completeness when her eyes gazed upon his, why no words were needed to be said to explain the language they spoke at that particular moment. He felt it, and he knew she felt it too. “Why did you have to leave me behind? Why do you have to disappear when everything was so perfect for both of us? Why do I have to see you now with him? You could have stayed; life would not have been like this for both of us. If only I could turn back time and say the things that could change all this, I would. I should have been a little braver, we could have been together. We could have...” As he spoke to nothingness, the thought wounded him deeply. He turns around and walks away.

As if the winds conveyed his message to Aeneah... in her thoughts she silently answered him...

“I could have stayed if you said you needed me to. All you had to do was ask. I could have given you more than what you wanted me to. I left because I was scared, you scared me. I never believed that dreams could come true, not until that day you came and made it all real for me. I was afraid of my own feelings, I was afraid that if I make them real, you’d go away and I would be waking up in a dream. I guess destiny made its own web of magic for both of us. Nevertheless, thank you. I’m grateful that you’re the reason of the many unexpected changes in my life, thank you for being my reason for feeling loved, being in love, and for loving again. You were my reason for picking up my sword to fight through what I was scared of, and for giving up to what I hoped for. I am grateful that once in my life I met you, for that moment in my life which I felt the complexity of being complete, for truly loving someone. For letting me believe that fairytales do come true, that dreams can be realized, that a prince always finds her princess, and that love can rest on its righteous place. You will always remain to be my fairytale, my ever after, the one story I would not tire telling the world about, the only truth that existed in my own realm of mendacity. If life took a turn and offered me a choice, I would still choose you; no one could have changed me better than you did, Khali. In my memory and in the hidden depths of my soul, I would forever cherish what we had.” And with that she caught sight of him for the last time, she watched as he walks away in the grassy park, the sun’s brightness outshined her eyes and when she looked up again she caught no sight of him, and for the last time she felt the pang of loosing him… Again.

Princess Aeneah woke up in the middle of the night, dazed of what she had just dreamt. She slowly got up, walked towards her porch, and gazed up to the sky. She saw the same star flicker its light again, “I now know what pain is father, I understand now why Love is complex on Earth.” She said in a whispering voice as she gestured a hand over her heart. Still looking up in the sky, gazing at the star that shines the brightest, to the star her father calls Earth, the Princess said in a teary voice, “You would forever be my star Khali, my Prince.” The Princess has finally found the answers to all her questions, the prince he had longed seek for.

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In our lives, there is that certain someone we could never forget, no matter how hard we try. Sometimes most of us learn to move on and yet do not have the power to eradicate the memories of our past, maybe that is why most of our memories become shadows of the past, they are remembered because they become an inherent part of who we are.

There are dreams that we want to be realized, dreams that we desire to revere forever, and dreams that we choose to keep on the realm of our unconscious minds.

When two people are bound for each other, the universe conspires to unite these two unique being. The one person who will not only satisfy but satiate, not only complete but fulfill your very existence. It’s hard to elucidate the complexity of how this all works, maybe God made it intricate on purpose not to rattle the human mind but to make us realize the essence of being alive and the nature of Love. If you have found that certain someone in your life, different from all the rest, don’t give yourself so much reason why you must fall for him, coz you might also find a million reasons to fall out of love – just learn to say the words, and fall, there is no better reason than that of the magic of falling in love. If you feel the need to hold on to someone, hold on, it’s better to hold your end of the rope than loosing it, too late to find out that someone was holding the other end for you. Your will heart will know when it is time to let go.

However, always remember that the one meant for you might not be the one you end up with, as what I have said it’s hard to vindicate the complexity of how love works. Lucky are those who found that certain person they are meant to be with, it is now up to them to make it all happen. The universe only conspires you both to cross the same path, but it is up to you to take that first step.

Simply saying, it’s all about making certain choices, choices we have to make ourselves, God made it that way to let us have the power to choose – having the free will is what makes us different from everything He created. Learn to have the ability to choose, use it in making your life better; it is a powerful instrument that we can use to change ourselves, and change how the world turns in our point of view.

If you have the found the Truth in the Eyes of Deception in this story, then you are one exceptional person. Only those who read by means of the heart can capture the very essence of its message.

Tuesday, December 26, 2006, 4:10:41 PM

xoxo, >3

noreply@blogger.com (Precious F.D.) — Sun, 28 Jan 2007 10:23:00 +0000

Title : Every

There is a Truth in one’s Lie

A Lie in one’s Hope

A spark of Hope in One’s sorrow

A Sorrow in one’s happiness

A momentary Happiness in one’s pain

A complex Pain in every fairytale

A Fairytale in every dream

A Dream powered by faith

A flick of Faith in one’s realm of beliefs.

A Tear in one’s smile

A Smile in one’s sadness

A Strength in times of weakness

A Weakness in moments of valor

A cry of Victory in the presence of loosing

A Loss in one’s mendacity

And a Lie in someone’s Truth.

Title : Silence

Sometimes in silence we find out who we really are

We find peace through its resounding calmness

But often it also create gaps towards other people

Nevertheless, even in our own silence

We find out that there are those who never let go

Those who did not fail to see the bridge you’ve built,

And took the first step to give you a tap on the back

Those who sincerely care for you

The people whom you don’t need to give

Any reason or explanation to

Those who truly know who you are

Even in Silence..

Title : Stars and Wishes

Often we gaze on the sky and wish upon a distant star

Sometimes we wish so hard for that certain star to fall

That we fail to see the other stars falling endlessly

Just to grant our wishes.

There are stars that are meant to grant our wishes

And there are those who righteously belong to the sky.

Stars which are only made to be gazed up upon

Never to fall to grant anyone’s wish.

Title : The Epiphany of

How long will you continue to endure the pain

Of a forgotten promise

How long will you hope for

A Love trapped in the past

How long will you let yourself suffer

For concealing what you truly feel

How long will are you willing to hold on

And when are you going to let go?

Title : Hold Me

If I asked you to hold on to me, would you?

If I asked you to sit beside me, would you?

If I asked you to be near me, would you?

And if I asked you to take me away from here, would you?

If I asked you to be with me, would you?

I know you would

But, would you still hold on to me even if I already belong to someone else?

Are you willing to fight for something that’s truly yours?

Are you still willing to let go now or hold on?

Before you answer any of this, I just wanna say,

Can you hold my hand.. Never let it go

Until I can finally hold yours

With both my hands

xoxo PFD